April 2013
9 posts
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혼자서
혼자서 있을 때마다 너가 자꾸 생각나 잊힐 줄 알았는데 잊을 수 있다고 믿었는데 오히려 반대야 더 보고 싶어 미치겠어 난 아직 너 생각 뿐이야 아직 그때로 돌아가고 싶고 마음은 아직 거기서 맴돌고 있나봐
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It's all just so #$(*&#($@*&ing complicated.
Why is everything so @#$%*#($*ing complicated.
I wish we could keep things simple.
I wish I could think more simple.
But the more I try to think in a simpler sense,
things get SO #$@(*ing complicated…
because life isn’t just that simple
and there aren’t just black and white answers to everything,
there’s always tradeoffs and opportunity losses.
Even if you make the...
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What's on my mind?
YOU are on my mind.
That is the only thing on my mind.
I wish I could change that mind.
So that you wouldn’t be invading my mind.
But in the end, it’s all hopeless, because…
you are STILL on my mind.
and all I end up thinking about about is you… ♥
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Maybe.
Maybe this is for the best.
Maybe this is how things should’ve been since the beginning.
Maybe there is a reason behind all this.
Maybe, just maybe something good will come out of all of it.
This maybe is the only hope that prevents me from breaking down.
This maybe is the only way I can live on and reassure myself without the accumulation of guilt and regrets clouding my mind.
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A million hearts
You’re the only one
Who lights me up
Like I’m glowing in the dark
… ♥
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희망
희망이라는 거
나도 한번 갖어 보자
되든 말든 한번 해보자
믿어보자 한번
더 이상 아쉬움과 두려움에 눌려있지 말고
용기를 갖어 보자
힘을 업어서 한번 도전 해보자
그래야지 미련이 남던 말던
노력이라도 했다는 변명이라도 할 거 아니야
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보고싶어
보고 싶어
너무 너무 너무 보고 싶다
볼 수 없다는 걸 아니까 더욱더 보고 싶어
인정하기 싫지만 사실인 것 나도 알아…
그런 내가 더 싫어
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One step closer
I want to approach you, I want to get closer. I want to get to know you, I want so badly to be a part of your life, to mean something to you, to dwell in your presence.
I want ALL of this.
Yet, why is it, WHY IS IT that every time I try to take one step closer I end up taking two steps back?
Tell me why, why is it so hard?
Why is it so much easier said than done?
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Just don't
Don’t act like you know everything about me. Don’t act like you give a shit. Don’t act like you know the next move I’m going to make. Don’t act like you’re so naive and innocent. Don’t act like this means anything to you.
Just. Stop. Pretending.
I can see right through you and it’s sickening me. You are SO absolutely fake.
Get the FUCK out.
February 2013
4 posts
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복수
너가 나한테 제일 크게 복수할 수 있는 거는 행복이야
그러니까 행복해야 해 그래야지 너의 복수가 이루어질 테니까 그래야지 내 죄책감이 조금이라도 회복될 수 있을 테니까
그러니까 행복하게 살아 뒤돌아보지 말고
나와 함께했던 시간들에 미련 두지 말고 좋은 사람 꼭 만나기를 바래
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Unworthy
I know I’m unworthy of you
I know I’ve wronged you
You were nothing but pure and loving to me
and yet all I have done is hurt you.
I’m sorry, I’m completely undeserving of you.
I know you’ll be in a happier place without me.
This is my goodbye.
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미안해
한때 너와 평생 함께 할거란 약속했었어 너를 지켜주고 싶었어 그 약속 지킬 수 있다고 믿어왔어
오직 순수한 사랑이란 것 진심으로 해보고 싶었어 그때만큼은 자신 있었어 우리 둘만으로 충분하고 행복할 수 있다고 생각했어
그땐, 넌 내 전부였으니까 그땐, 너밖에 안보였으니까 그때만큼은 영원한 사랑이라고 믿었으니까
근데 언제부터 욕심이 커졌고 더 바라고 더 바라니까 실망하고 실망하니까 서운하고 서운해서 언제부터인지 마음은 변하기 시작했어
이런 내 모습이 싫지만 이런 내가 싫지만 이런 내가 나 조차도 원망스럽지만 근데 멈출 수가 없었어 아니, 멈출 수 있었겠지 근데 내 욕심이 너무 커졌어
그러다가 보니 어느새 너가 달라 보이고 너에 대한 마음은 예전 같지 않아졌어……
그래서 미안해 변명하지 않을게 그럴...
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다시
다시 사랑이란 것을 해보고 싶다
다시 설레고 싶다
다시라고 하지만
예전보다는 다른
신선한 새로운 경험을 해보고 싶다
May 2012
2 posts
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REALIZATION - a step to becoming wiser?
I’ve come to realization that my views will always be forever changing.
Before becoming exposed to the currently existing corrupt “real” world, I had such definite morals, values, judgments and decisions based on what I perceived to be right and/or wrong.
I’ve had the same belief for 18 years of my life until university *BAM*.
Three years of university experience has...
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바보
이별이 이렇게 힘든건줄 알았으면 시작하지 말았을걸,
바보
감당도 못할거면서 왜 바보같이 마음을 줬니?
왜 한번에 푹 빠졌니?
헤엄처 나올수도 없으면서
자신도 없는 그런 미련한짓을 왜했니?
후회 안한다고 자신에게 약속 따위는 왜했니? 지금 후회하고 있잖아
I’ve got no one to blame, but myself.
February 2012
15 posts
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Let you go
I gotta stop dwelling in the past, gotta move the fuck on.
For myself… for me.
I gotta let you go, and you gotta let me go.
But that didn’t happen yesterday, I can’t seem to do it today, it’ll only be harder tomorrow.
But I gotta do this, I really do.
Maybe today, hopefully tomorrow.
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Love
is oh so bitter-sweet.
The sweetness can turn you into a love-sick helpless puppy dog, while the bitterness can turn you into a ruthless, vengeance-seeking bitch.
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Change... is hard.
사람이 변한다는게 얼마나 힘든 건지 요즘 내 자신을 돌아보며 뼈저리 느끼고 있다.
언제부터였는지 모르겠지만 누구와의 이별을 바랄 때 그 사람을 피하거나 도망 다니는 몹쓸 습관이 생겼다.
이 습관 통해서 더 심한 상처를 주고 있다는 것을 알고 있으면서도 고치고 변해야 한다는 것도 알고 있으면서도 매번 이런 식으로 나는 사람들과 그리고 또 사랑하는 사람들과 관계를 끊어왔다.
그래서 그런지 이번에는 정말 깨끗이 정리하고 싶다. 내 마음, 내 심정, 내가 하고 싶은 말 다 털어놓고 재대로 끝을 내고 싶다.
하지만 쉽지 않을 것 같다. 용기가 매우 부족하고 더욱더 필요하다. 마음은 갈수록 약해진다.
그래서 참 사람은 쉽게 변하지 못하는구나.
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Unfinished business, yet wanting closure...
I spoke to you again, in hopes of achieving a closure to our past.
Yet, we ended up unfolding a new beginning, which opened my heart once again, leaving my heart vulnerable and exposed.
“I must put an end to this blasphemy, I must stop myself before it’s too late…” I’d tell myself over and over again, each night, each day… Self-control and resistance, I wanted...
어딘가에
어딘가에 있겠지… 나를 위한 사람 그리고 나는 그를 위한 사람…
그 사람 과 그 사랑이 빨리 왔으면 좋겠다
자제하자
내 자신을 자제하자
포기하자 그만두자
더이상 빠지지말자
여기서 끝내자
Got that? . .
하지만 마음은 자기 마음대로 전혀 내말안듣고 내 머리랑 마음이랑 따로 놀고있네..
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Physically 힘든것보다 Mentally 힘든게 더 아프다.
no more
더이상은 못하겠다 진짜… I won’t let myself go through this any longer.
My closure, good bye. 이제는 끝이다, 안녕.
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The heart.
사람의 마음이란 쉽게 움직인다고 하지만…
나는 왜 이렇게 아직 한곳에 머물고 있는걸까?
움직여줬으면 좋겠다 진짜..
People often say that their heart’s moved on, and that the heart moves on quicker than the mind..
If that’s true, how come my heart’s still dwelling in this one place? Why can’t my heart seem to move on away from you? Why is it still beating for you?
If only my heart could move on…
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너 때문에? No.
힘들다 너 때문에..
힘들다… 나 때문에.. 너 때문인줄 알았는데 내탓이구나….
내가 니 생각을 계속 떠올리고 너를 못잊은것도 나고…
아직도 너의 한마디의 흔들리는것도 나구나…
너는 그냥 한사람 뿐인데.
그리고 넌 날 잊고 사는데…
나 혼자서 힘들어하고 나 혼자서 바라는거고 나 혼자서 외로워하고 있는거겠지..
다 내탓이구나…
이제 알게 되었네..
이 겨울은
너가 없는 이 겨울은
참 길게 느껴질것같다…
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Psychology is turning me into a psycho...
After learning human tendencies in my social psych class, I start to realize these tendencies in myself…
..and I can’t help but to think - does that make me one of them?
I start diagnosing myself and start noticing these flaws and realize that I don’t want to conform to the naturalistic human ways…
Then an internal conflict and cognitive dissonance arise within me,...
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First world problems
1. Internet breaks down
2. Facebook upgrades piss you off
3. Your cell phone freezes or shuts off
4. Twitter upgrades/maintenances
5. You lose all your work because your computer freezes
6. You lose all your pictures, videos, music, etc files because you get a virus
7. The bus comes 10 minutes late
8. Your PowerPoint file doesn’t seem to work during your presentation
9. YouTube...
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More than I thought...
생각보다 너를 많이 좋아했었나봐… 그래서 그런지 아직도 미련을 못 버리며 힘들어하는 거겠지?
I think I liked you more than I thought… Maybe that is why I still can’t seem to let this go and it’s probably why I’m still in vain?
November 2011
3 posts
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I love you, but you drive me crazy.
I need you, but I need time to myself.
I want you, but I want to be with my friends too.
I think of you, but I think of what it would be like without you.
I tell you the truth, but I only tell you some truths.
I often miss you, but I’m not lost without you.
What the fuck happened to everlasting, passionate, irreplaceable love?
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Goodbyes,
No goodbyes are ever easy. Goodbyes aren’t meant to be easy.
If you truly loved and cared for that person, saying goodbye is the hardest thing and there is nothing in the world that could prepare you for the pain and suffering that you are about to endure. Nothing but time can soothe the pain and ease the sorrow.
If you are saying goodbye to someone and you feel no loss or suffering,...
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… and if I could take it all back just to be with you, I would do it within a heart beat ♥
October 2011
7 posts
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MAD LIB TIME :D
It all started when I awoke with a splendid pain in my armpits. Then, my pharmacist was late. We got bounced in traffic for a millenium, which made me obnoxious for my meeting with Whitney Houston. I apologized unwillingly to him, which seemed to make things blind again. But then the meeting turned into butts, with him barfing and flirting. I cried when he sneaked off. On the way home we passed a...
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15 Lasts
What was the last thing you ate? Plain white bread from Zehr’s ………… yum
What was the last thing you said? RIP Steve Jobs :( What was the last song you heard? 인순이 - 오늘 같은 밤이면 What was the last TV show you watched? HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER HIMYM HIMYM What was the last movie you saw? HP7, come to think of it.. I haven’t watched movies in forever What was the last...
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Tell me
Tell me things will be okay Promise me that you’ll never leave Convince me that this will last forever Love me like you’ve never loved before ♡
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All I have to say...
When I think of you, I can only think of two things: “Easy come, easy go” & “Nothing lasts forever”
My time with you was short. I knew it wouldn’t last, and I hoped it wouldn’t last because in the end, I knew it wouldn’t be something that would last.
Or maybe I brought it upon myself and pushed you away to fulfill my own prophecy, so that we...
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and this I ask of you....
우선 내 자신에 만족하고 싶어 그 이후엔 내 앞에 서있는 너가 보이겠지 그때까지 날 기다려줄 수 있겠니?
